+*-At the Bottom-*+

losing something is just one thing, losing everything thing is another... everything you own, your home, your friends, and even your family.... but i guess when you hit rock bottom... there is no where left to go but up... until some ass hole comes in and starts making the bottom deeper than it was before...
that is my life as it stands...i have nothing anymore... i dont even have a future... and now i dont know what to do... :sad:  
my dad yelled at me and kicked me out of the house because i said that i didnt like his rules....
so now im living with a friend (Jill)... but there have been problems there too
i got yelled at for not cleaning the kitchen.... AFTER  i had cleaned the bedroom and the bathroom, comletely spotless... jill has asked me to lie whenever her mom asks me if im being fed... (no im not... i hate the weekends cause i cant eat at school)
and im tired of putting up with everything... i have no time what-so-ever to finish my school work because im always trying to satisfy their needs >_>  when jill has to go somewhere she tells me to go with her when i should be getting my work done... <_<   and her mom is always asking me to clean the house... and all this other crap... and anything i  do eat has lactose in it.. and im intolerant to that unless i take my medication but i dont like to take it cause it smells like dog food >
.....
STOP READING THIS (YES YOU... NEXT TO ME... THIS IS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS!)

anyways.... im probably going to move in with Kati... cause i she is like my best friend and i trust her more than anyone else... and i know her family better... oh yeah.. and her mother isnt an alcoholic... X__x  (that might be why im always getting yelled at)
but i've been through too much already and i know that i dont need to put up with it... everything that i ever wanted to do has gone down the drain... im doing really poorly in school now because of all the stress that im going through and im about to start choking random people (glares at cassie.... stop reading this you effing whore!)

*grins evily*... she got up and left....

well... i dont know what to do... this guy likes me.. he goes to RVHS... and he is afraid to be alone with me... i think it's cause he already has a g/f and she is a bitch.. and he doesnt want to do anything with me while he is still with her... but i am not like that....
and there is another guy that feels inferrior to me because im "smart"   i dont get that... and because of that... chad didnt get to be with Jill the other day... and now i feel like that it is my fault.. only because im "smart."... wtf... it's like people want me to be stupid just so that they will be friends with me <terrible grammar and spelling>   X__x
cause im typing mega fast right now... cause im pissed....    
im tired of moving... and right before thanksgiving and christmas... wtf is that...  i knew that my family didnt want me the day that my mother told me that i was an accident.. and she is still trying to convince me that karl isnt my father... she said that i came from a one night stand with some guy... named lou   v_v   

so... now that karl has kicked me out.. as far as i know.. he isnt my father anymore  ... and now that my mother doesnt have any legal rights on me... im a freakin orphin... wow.. isnt that great... but im trying to imancipate myself so that i can live on my own with whoever i want..... and that is another reason that i am moving in with Kati... it's cause im sortof running from the government... i have to stay on the move in order to be left alone...
but i plan to stay with Kati... they should leave me alone for a while.. until i try to join the A/F  then they are going to ask me all these stupid questions about why i left and junk....

when jill is at work today.. imma pack all my things up and send them to Kati's house... cause i cant live  there anymore.. all work and no food isnt good for me... i am NO ONE'S personal slave... i agreed to help out around the house.. but i didnt say i would do everything... that isnt fair... and jills mom is bothering me about getting a job... but that is hard cause Karl's g/f is going around saying all kinds of bad things about me so to ruin my life even more... if i had a damn job.. it wouldnt be so hard... but yeah.. im just tired of it... and i honestly dont want to go on... i was crying abd begging god that i would die last night... but dont worry... i wouldnt take my own life ^_^;;; i was just really really really x 9 fork of midget smiting, depressed last night... i didnt want to do anything or try to do anything.. all i wanted to do was die... and not have to deal with anything anymore... i know that a lot of people have it hard and i know what it's like... but it's been like this my entire life.. my mom was always moving me around the country... hardly getting fed.. always having to do all the work.. then i moved in with my dad and he is just an effing nazi jew....  he can go shove his swastica up his yamika..:sweat:. and i probably spelled that all wrong.. but you know what i mean....
im angry at everyone but a seldom few people.... i cant stand anyone at the moment... and the scarriest thing happened this morning....
O_O... when i was crying... Mrs. Stahl..... :scared: hugged... me   O_O    she is the bitchest teacher in the world.. the stricktest... not the hardest... but still... and when i see her on the road.. i honk the horn at her to mess up her vibes  (she is a yoga pilladies... freakin meditation freak)   and she is constantly yelling at the class for messing up her.... "vibes"  lol...
but she is sortof nice if you get along with her.. she only likes me as a student cause i do all my work perfectly... i only have a b in that class cause i missed a test when i had the flu.... gawd... the world is sooo luving   ^_^   (NOT!!)   EFF YOUR COUCH! *twitches*   sorry... i need to kill someone... any volunteers??  O.o      no... no one?? ok... *takes off Cassie's head*... sorry.. she was the closest one too me...  :/   but i think Kati would agree that she deserves it....
sorry for the novel about my psychotic rant ... i think i need tharapy...... O_O.... uuuh.. oooh..... *starts singing uncontrolably*.... "i need tharapy.... tharapy!!........." *sweatdrop* sorry.. v_v   you people probably think im all crazy now... which i am!!!!!!!!! *laughs maniacally*    *blinks*

  *faints from brain overheating...*